Important life lessons... hopefully you've learned at least one, myself? I learned an important lesson today, how life wouldn't be complete without safety pins and handcuffs. I'm sitting here, wondering why i'm even writing a blog, wondering if anyone will ever read it.. twirling a large sized safety pin around on my tongue.
I hope that I dont bite down, causing the clasp to open. In such a situation I would invariably stab myself in the mouth, and yet I continue to suck, play with, and twirl this beautifully devious piece of metal. People in my life, are like safety pins.. No I dont put all of them in my mouth to be played with.. >_>.. more like, they're a risk, a danger... yet I cannot resist. I know that I will eventually be stabbed, that I will bleed, I can sense the pain coming, and yet I continue ignorantly. I continue because I keep hoping that things will get better, and there will come a time that I wont get stabbed.
This wont ever happen.. but I can still hope right? I'm talking to someone who used to be my best friend, a man that was always there for me.. Now our conversation is filled with painful silence, an akward aura that neither of us know how to penetrate. What do I do? I do keep trying, keep struggling onwards, hoping things can and will get better.. or do I wait to get stabbed?
Life, is like handcuffs. You will eventually find yourself in a situation involving handcuffs, wheather their metaphorical or wrought of cold steel. People, situations, things I love in this world.. they grasp me and refuse to let go. Or maybe, I'm the one who refuses to let go.. maybe if I handcuff myself to them, they can't run away??
so here I am, listening to music, rambling, and wishing my brain would turn off... handcuffed with a safety pin in my mouth.
How long until I stab myself, unable to take the pin out of my tongue?
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